Insanity.

So, I purchased the Insanity workout dvds. It's a 60-day total body makeover, blah blah. It looks reeeally hard. :/ I'm probably going to die the first few weeks, but it's worth it. I'm pretty intimidated but oh well, I'll do the absolute best I can. Today is day one; the Fit Test. It's not necessarily an actual "workout," just to see where my fitness level is. I really shouldn't have laxed last night, but I ate McDonalds (pig) and wanted it out before I weighed myself today. 155.8lbs. Ugh. I'm hoping that by the end of the 60 days, I'll weigh 130. That's reasonable, I think, especially since you can burn up to 1,000 calories a workout, and I have to do a workout 6 out of 7 days in the week. Only 25 pounds. 12 1/2 pounds a month. Seems achievable, right? I'm not really sure what I'm going to do about my diet. I still want to keep it under 500 calories a day, but with such intense workouts (they're REALLY intense), I'm afraid to pass out. I think I'll just eat an hour or so before each workout, then fast the rest of the day. If I do lose 25 pounds in these two upcoming months, then that means I'll only be 15 pounds away from my ultimate goal weight (115 ♥ ). It's so crazy to think about it. I'm SO fucking close. I look back to the days when I was 230 and can't believe I've even made it this far.

Cheers to Ana; you didn't give up on me then, and you're stronger than you've ever been now. Let's make it happen, love..